Sunday-- got weak and light headed- heart beating- at church and stayed that way most of the day. Took couple extra 25's and got thru night ok. Monday felt so-so- decided to go to rehab and maybe a workout would get the juices flowing-- but I lasted 2 min and about passed out. Was on monitor- they called doc- trundled me off to ER, had cath next morning- added 4 more stents (now 10). Wed home, thurs relaaxing. But thurs night, had a coulple gulps, and felt like went into panic mode-- for next 6 hours. Afraid to move- might make it worse. 4 am calmed down. Fri- called doc- got new perscription. Sat 1:09 PM 3/20/2010 trying to describe how I feel--- Light headed, weak and shakey, can feel heart beating- I think I had a couple 'gulps' - where the heart does a 'gulp' like a sinking feeing in the throat- trying to swallow something. Oops- theres another. Like blood flow has been pinched off for a second. Spasm? Occasional extra or missed beats should be controlled by the metrpolol. Which has been changed from 100 to 50 this time -- but can take an extra 25 if feel I need to. When get those sinking feelings, It seems adrenalin kicks in - anxiety? - because of what happened Monday- ?which got me 4 new stents. So yesterday got perscription for Adavan(?) [Ativan- Lorazepam] Last night got couple gulps and took 25 metropolol- started feeling nervous, took one, got tinglely, but slept well. THis morning felt good- started couple chores- got a couple gulps, and now trying to not feel nervous. So- wait? TAke another 25? Take an Adavan? Says at night as needed. Just had another. Pushed my button on monitor - this is my last day. Need to ask a nurse. Nurse says is low dose- could take another- but call on-call doc. Ok. Main problem-- the feeling of pinched blood vessel causing gulp- causing panic? Dr Patel on duty. Says yes ok to take one- just don't hop in car. Try thru weekend. I'm feeling afraid to move-- guess I'll try one. 1:55 PM 3/21/2010 Sun Took one last night- also. slept well. Church (Stk Conf) was fine, Home early, had a sammich- read a little. Only a couple mild gulps so for- lightly tired-light headed- maybe a short nap. Spose to go HT with EQP in a coupel hours- 4:56 PM 3/24/2010 Wed Sun- had an 'episode' before I got home-- Mon- long day. Feeling bad that night (I think- lost track) Tues- Morning class ok- crashed by afternoon class. Had wife and Billy come and get me and my car- and went to Doctor appt. He discussed with some one and decided to put me on norvasc - a calcium channel blocker- only 2.5. Take one for the eve then start one a day in the morn. So- today- how do I feeL? Different. Had a few gulpy feelings. Couple naps. Took dog for a walk-which wore me out. Slight headache, my ears feel full. A little lightheaded. I swear my heart gurgled. I think the spasms not near as much- I think I feel better- but I haven't done anything today (taking couple more days off). Tired. Blood pressure I think is ok. Pulse usually ok. Well- see how I am next day or so. 5:10 PM 3/25/2010 Thurs Was fine until around noon- then had a really good episode- the gulp, the baloon, lighthead, cold sweat- at least my feet- they get really cold when there is a circulation problem. Started to get anxious- took a half calm-pill. Didn't seem to help as much this time. Took a nitro. Called my cardio-nurse for fyi- she said if 3 don't work, head for ER. Took andother nitro. Anyway felt better after about an hour. More research- says spasming artery- nitrates, channel-blockers, and beta-blockers. SO eventually should calm down. Just give it time. yay. Seems like it is every couple days lately, and maybe doesn't last as long as time before? Oh yeah- now I'm getting heartburn. 3:14 PM 3/26/2010 Fri Spent about 5 hours at DMV for 10 min form for michael. Lesson: Do it online. Had a small episode- took a half calmdown pill- half an hour or so started to feel ok. 9:27 AM 3/28/2010 Sun Yesterday wasn't bad- felt a couple minor gulps- I think a took a half calm-down pill and later a 25 metropolol- felt a little drained part of the day. I think I do feel a little heartburn today- I usually feel a little off in the mornings after I take my meds. Lets see how today goes. 6 pm. Not too bad so far I guess- I think I've had a bunch of little spasms. Or skips? I'm tired but functional. Doc Burton (ward) says such small doses of Atavan, could take daily, or more if needed, and may help. Takes couple weeks for most meds to get into system- so wait until followup to see if need any changes. Oh well- hanging in there. 8:13 PM 3/30/2010 Tues. Yesterday- felt a few minor spasms- got thru day ok. Today- just felt a couple faint ones- feel pretty good- antsy. 7:43 AM 4/2/2010 fri am thurs- made it thru- an occasional flutter Good fri- lab closed- maybe I'll try a bike ride. Still feel a little weak- and wish the flutters would go away. Live with it or ask docs it increase? Only taking 2.5 of Norvasc. Bike ride not too bad- but needed nap after. Then we went to Jungle Rapids, eat out, a party, and shopping. I've been a little tail-dragging all day. Message from nurse- too late. Doc Burton say won't hurt to ask if a little more would be better. The little heart flutters are annoying and a little tiresome. 7:09 PM 4/3/2010 Sat Was ok till lately- funny feeing in heart, nausea. Called HealthCoach nurse- then on call cardiologist- said I was taking such small dose that taking another wont hurt- might help. Took half a calm-down pill while ago (didn't this morn) and just now took another Norvasc. Sposed to go to a meeting in a few min- lets see how I feel. Still have small balloon. 8:32 PM 4/4/2010 sun Ok I guess today- lately couple gulps- decided to take another Norvasc- and see what doc has to say tomorrow. 8:49 PM 4/6/2010 Tues Both said not change dose yet. Yesterday I did'nt take a half-Adavan- I don't remember if I did Sun. By the last 2 min at rehab I was having a full blown 'episode', like several weeks ago. I guess I'd have to describe it as tension- my heart (maybe) tensing up, feeling like I have to make myself breathe, and trying not to cry. Nurse suggested take my Adavan, and next time take it before I comeand see if it helps- but if I don't need it to sleep at night, don't. But felt little squeezes all day so I took one last night. Today not bad, but did take half this morning. TOnight tho the squeezes started- thought I would try a 25mg Metropolol - felt light headed and tingly- but maybe less squeezing. Maybe. Why does Adavan seem to help? Norvasc seemed to have helped, and the mono-nitrate. But something needs to increase just a little- or will I slowly improve anyway? 9:41 PM 4/7/2010 wed had a great day, took a half pill before going to rehab- had a good workout on treadmill, good class at CFA- ran around outside doing labs- evening class good- tho felt a few twinges every now and then, took another metropolol- see if that gets me thru the night. 1:03 AM 4/9/2010 fri Doc appt yesterday - we decided to start 75 mg metropolol xl - but go ahead a take a 25 around 5. Midnight start having a panic attack? Dizzy/floaty, tingley fingers and toes, heart feels heavy and aches. Took half Adavan- better after a while, a little, but heart still aches. Called cardio, got Dr. Patel, he said ok to take another 25 and still start the 75 in morning. ( if still problem, take nitro, if still problem, ER to get checked--ha). Been a few min- maybe getting better. Try sleep- got long day tomorrow ( field trip to BCC for seminar). achy-breaky heart. 7:23 AM 4/9/2010 cont very short night... catch 6:15 ferry, got to BCC before 7:30. Just took my 75 MXL. Weak and tired. [ felt slow half the day- afternoon was better- someone said I looked better ] 6:38 PM 4/10/2010 Sat Slept ok- decided to drop off Michael and go to the booth at Azalea Festival. Oh oh. Finally found a parking place I could afford- was seriously thinking of bagging it an going home. Walked down to Front st. Ok. Walked around a awhile, Ok. Problem with HotDog guy, we had to move our booth. was feeling occasional spasms- but soon started feeling anxious, fingers and toes tingle, light headed, took a half calm-down pill. Few min later thought I would try a nitro. Meanwhile- was sure I couldn't walk back to my car- maybe could hitch ride with Barry who was trying to leave. Someone grabbed a WFD guy who checked me then called paramedics (on bikes!)- BP was like 190/100- still light headed, Stood up,BP maybe 160/100 ?. Anyway- they wanted to take me over to the ambulance and hook up 12 lead. Irregular readings (of course) and with my history (of course) 6 of them begged me to let them take me to ER. Nuts. I said ok. BP still high but dropping, still light headed but better. Anyway- got checked out- Doc satisfied I'll survive and let me go. Called cardio- doc weaver said need 4 or 5 days to see of the 75 metropolol is working, and go ahead and take the calm-down pills night and day for a while. Now- still getting occasional spasm for a sec. Heart hurts a little. Heart burn? Relax. 7:34 AM 4/12/2010 Mon Sun- felt several little spasms- but seen to be more noticeable- was slow all day (and cold most). Need ot take pills, notify doc- have follow up at cardio, and a big field trip with CFA. A little worried. 7:07 PM 4/15/2010 Thurs Tued- Aux mtg= took a half- got persctiption for .5 atavan- 3x as needed. Wed- long day- took one (.5) before rehab- doc (nurse) said could try 25 metropolol if at hospitol being monitored- but nurse wanted to talk to doc first (which took an hour) meanwhile was having several spasms, and they thougt may saw blips on readouts that may corelate -- doc said go ahead and take the 25- seemed to help- spasms seeemed less and milder until evening. took my adavan. 9:31 PM 4/20/2010 Tues started new stuff- amitriptyline -- took a couple 25's over the weekend- felt a little funny, but no spasms for last couple days ( very faint couple times ) still take ativan couple times. Tonight felt a couple faint ones- and just took my nightly meds- if I feel any more or any stronger, I'll take another 25. Last night woke up feeling something was trying to happen- stronger beat, but went back to sleep. Tomorrow is big day- see how it goes. It's been great not having those spasms all the time. Thurs- so it seems doc went and looked at my readouts, decided no correlation- but that am having common feelings, so let more time pass, but would like me to try new anxiety meds. And ok to take an occasional 25 if having spasms (like now). Will check on new meds tomorrow. 9:48 AM 4/25/2010 Sun Well- doing ok--- Fri night (after mid) woke up feeling heart beating (strongly?) (Cathy at Relay for Life) took a booster at 4 am. CG mtg sat morn- by after noon feeling squeezies again, took another booster- seemed to have got thru the night ok. I guess I'm improving- but it is frustrating when those feelings start creeping in again. Oh yeah- 4 biopsies and a few freeze burns- wait for results. - I feel like eating all the time- and not enough exersize. Last 2 weeks of school. 10 pm - felt a little sick-ish last half the day, and my heartbeat was noticeable often,-- around 9 checked my BP- seemed a little high, so I took a booster. I think I feel a little better, don't notice my heart, but still feel a little sick-ish, and my ears feel pressure. Guess I can try a calm-down pill and see if I sleep thru the night. 10:09 PM 4/27/2010 Tues Well, I found out that my symptoms were caused by the amitriptyline- it's starting to kick in. Yay. High BP when I got to rehab- they had me sit out for a few- and take a booster. Felt ok after workout and rest of day. Today was ok also- just now starting to feel a twinge or two. They said to take a booster before rehab, and still take some ativan for a little while longer (?) Takes two weeks or so for new stuff to be in the system. 7:40 PM 5/2/2010 Sun Thurs called cardiodoc and told them about symptoms, the got message to go ahead and stop taking it. Yay! But will still take a few days for it to be gone. Friday was long stressful day- Ash missed final, I missed getting lawn mower cuz forgot wallet, met counselor before rehab, take Ash home then back to walmart to get camping stuff, then pick up cathy and then home to pack up and go camping. Sat got home and unpacked and back into town before 10 and finally got the electric lawn mower. Fixed wheel on trailer and dolly. Later wen shopping back to walmart again. Long day. Did take extra pill (and ativan) mid day and at bedtime. Today was ok- but woke up so stiff couldn't put my socks and shoes on. Did ok- felt occasional light twinge- but by 7 decided I better take one of each- was feeling a little sick, and more twinges. I think I feel better now. Tomorrow will be busy day (week!). 8:48 PM 5/5/2010 Wed Long day- Ash to Doc, morning class, rehab, HS class, then night class. Lessee-- Mon night had an episode, took couple pills and finally got to sleep. Had another Tues afternoon. Took couple pills, couple more at night. Today took pill before rehab- still had few spasms- good workout tho- but having spasms all day, took a couple pills earlier this eve.-- oh- reported to cardiodoc, nurse said doc said I'm handling it right, see you in a couple months. But this eve I've had a lot more spasms- not sure they are going away yet. Last day tomorrow- grades due. 10:52 PM 5/8/2010 Sat thurs and fri- lots of spasms. Called Doc (nurse) Doc )nurse said start taking 100 mg xl and 25 in evening (if needed>). Called cardiodoc (nurse) to ask if should still take 25 before rehab. Out of town- so of course did'nt hear back. So did not take one. Before workout, monitor would show what they said were 'PCV's whenever I felt something. While working out, felt fine. After, felt some. Thru the day (running crazy, graduations) felt many. Today not bad- fixed lawnmower, took michael to cut lawn, a few other things, but this eve felt like an 'episode' coming on. Tingling, sick feeling, heart heavy- for a little while, but still feel edgy. Just took another Adivan. Should I take another 25? Beta blockers and anxiety pills sposed to help with pvc's. But why do I seem to be having more of a problem lately? Stress of end of school, pain from efudex treatment? If I had them befoe, wasn't mentioned as a problem. But that was occasionaly, not several per min. Well- next doc appt is wed. 7:40 PM 5/9/2010 Sun Not too bad today- but had a small attack during church, had a blessing, had good talk with our local docs and Bro. Mikinney- he has quite a story. He still has flip-flops, and said there were periods of depression. I think my doc wants to put me on something better. But I think as I get used to 100 mg it will work better. Also good advice- light your load (and stress). OH yeah- Tim just had another heart attack couple nights ago. The only solution: get in shape and stay that way. One guy graduated from rehab- came back after couple weeks- just didn't feel good without the workouts. New summer schedule should allow back to biking and maybe rec center. 9:52 AM 5/12/2010 Wed Did I mention- 4 biopsies- two I go back today for deep freeze, one I cream for 6 weeks (else surgery). 4th was ok. Used cream on arms for week or so until it hurt too much too touch. Let it heal for a while and try again? see what derm says. Pain may have contributed to stress last week. Last day or two feel pretty good, tho by evening feel on the edge of an episode. I think I had one mon when I took ash to her doc- but went away by itself after a while. See my doc today- see what's next. 10:30 AM 5/13/2010 Thurs Ok- started new drug--Citalopram -- Celexa. And tried going on a bike ride this morning. And slept lousy last night- bathroom every hour or two. My Pravastatin has changed it's shape, but sposed to be same. Anyway- felt like I started having an episode while slowly biking- heart beating, but pulse seemed normal, tingly, light headed, maybe sweaty a little, and nauseous-- feeling some pvc's, too. Home, feeling shaky- took a Ativan. Read up on side effects of new stuff- including diahrea- which a almost just had. Yup - those are side effects. Already? Left message for doc- if shouldn't feel anything yet, then I don't know whats gong on. I'm tired. 6:06 PM 5/17/2010 Mon Well. I found out that yes you can start having side effects starting from day one. So I spent a good part of Thurs, Fri and Sat feeling sick. Really didn't want to start Regisration and school feeing like that, so after talking ti several medical people, decided to quit. On-call doc said it's not worth it. Felt pretty good Sun. Today, good, rehab workout felt fine- today felt a few flops. Got message from doc to tru Zoloft. Some people say (including pharmacist) that it shouldn't bother me as much. So- just took one after supper (he said eve better). Reading upon it tho say very similar things- but basically everyone is different- just have to find the one that works for you (without major side effects?) I think my flip-flops feel 'softer', and no episodes since Fri afternoon at the movie (Iron Man 2)-- too noisy. 10:39 AM 5/19/2010 wed so far so good- take the zoloft right after supper. I feel 'funny', and a little more light headed- almost dizzy sometimes. PVC'S come an go - sometimes a few per minute, sometimes go quite a few without noticing. 8:24 AM 5/23/2010 Sun Seems last couple days they become a little more noticeable, and usually the first half of the day I'm good, but this morning I'm feeling them already. I think I had a couple minor 'episodes' couple nights ago- just enough that I was thinkng "I don't feel so good" then decided I was having one- but I was ok after a few. So maybe episodes are decreasing but what about the 'gulps'? 9:24 PM 5/25/2010 Tues Sun night was rough- pvc's all night. Mon had one half pill left (got more later)- went to last rehab with no prob. Took 25 later, got thru day ok, took one at night, slept ok. Today felt fine most of the day- but started to feel 'em by eve, but still not bad. Left message with doc- got appt tomorrow. Took the zoloft after supper, and feel a little light headed and 'bent'- kinda of floating crookedly feeling. Normal for this pill I guess. Still mostly ok. 9:40 AM 5/26/2010 Mon Rough night for a while- took 25, then took an Ativan. I guess after 12:30 or so slept ok. This morning took my 100 and then went for bike ride- maybe 5 miles- strong head wind-felt like I had a work out. feel ok so far. 9:41 AM 5/27/2010 Thurs Doc yesterday-- we decided that for a while I will take an extra 25 every night. Bike ride this morning to Ft Fisher- feel ok. Changed schedule so every morning have time for workout. A few pushups bout killed me. 9:15 AM 5/30/2010 Sun Busy yesterday- Boat ramp, then helped neighbor load moving truck, we went to movie, deliver dinner to a friend, then shopping at walmart. The loud noise at movie bothered me a little bit, but went thru whole day with hardly a problem- tho pill still makes me feel a little 'funny', Fri- rehab trying to start a support group. Got treadmill out of shed (to sell), Movie with Ash. Party at friends home near beach- stayed late, got tired. But-- so far so good! 8:45 AM 6/6/2010 Sun Been a good week- could go hours without noticing anything-- occasional minor 'gulps'. But last night seems my heart started beating 'heavily' for a hour or two- wondered if I should take another booster. Slept if off. Didn't have a nap yesterday. Been doing bike rides and yard work-- I tire pretty easily-- like take naps. But mostly- feel pretty good. 4:09 PM 6/9/2010 Wed. OK- that was ridiculous. Late Mon night I started getting palpitations, pains, flip-flops, tingles- seemed like several 'episodes' in a row- finally got to sleep. Next day did some reading and talked to couple nurses-- What I learned: Don't eat chips and salsa (homemade) at 10:30 pm then go to bed. Seems I should be able to tell if I was having heartburn-- although I did notice a little burning sensation. NExt day- felt ok. Today did bike ride- still feel ok- though still having occasional 'gulps'- I would call mild. 4:37 PM 6/15/2010 Tues Lessee- Sun at church I think I had a minor episode for a few min- Mon up early to take son on flag route, then bike, then all day at school- no prob. A few gulps today. Doing ok. Can go hours sometimes without any reminders. Up to about 8 miles on bike- next week try 12. Mark going on meds to try alleviate a collapsed artery (from last bypass). Mom had a stent last week- sposed to get another next week or so. Tim doing good. 3:07 PM 6/21/2010 Mon. I think I had an episode in church yesterday- for a couple minutes. This morning I woke up feeling my heart beating strong(er then usual). Went for bike ride- on the beach this time (-harder). Seems pulse was higher then usual- even stopped for a few min- now at school- still feeing anxious but tired- would like to take a nap. Pulse is back down. Family is couple thousand miles away. 7:19 PM 6/27/2010 Sun Seems like I think things are going well until Sundays. Hardly noticed anything last couple days but today felt quite a few- and jittery and light headed and my ears feel 'full'- like need to pop but won't. This morn went for bike ride- found KB min-triathalon going on. Did my ride (8) then decided to follow where the runners were coming from then where the bikers were coming from so maybe added another 4 miles. Tired- doze off in church. Nap at home. dinner. Storm maybe coming in- may not be movie at the lake tonight. Oh- built new tarp tent- 20 ft high (?)- wonder if it will handle wind. Still feeing quite a few pvc's or whatever. Annoying. 4:32 PM 7/7/2010 Wed. Wow- week and a half. Hardly anything worth mentioning. Until now. Had a little accident yesterday- passing a moped and he decided to make a left turn and bumped my door. He got a boo-boo on his elbow. I got a big dent. Anyway- no skipped beats, no adrenaline rush, no nothing. Except annoyance. A blinker would have been nice. But since it was a double yellow line- I got the ticket. I've been feeling a little sick lately, a little more light headed, and pressure in my ears. Thought I would skip the extra 25 last night, but had a couple minor episodes- and this morning on bike ride seemed to have some more episodes. Took my time. Seems some foods (meat?) bother me. Feel a little jittery. Hoping to cut back on something- maybe the norvasc. Maybe not the metropolol. Bleh. Been on two boat patrols, including fireworks. Did ok. Usually doing 12 miles on bike. Almost got a kayak. Bleh. 12:10 PM 7/13/2010 tues Well- that was interesting. Sun night decided to talk to on-call doc about cutting back on metropolol. Decided to take 1/2 of the 25 for that night. Then Mon talked to cardio-doc. Said I should half the 100 one in a.m. So last night took other half of 25, and this morning took half of 100. Bike ride seemed fine. But last night had a really good tingle and flush- my hands, feet, and heart felt really hot for a couple min. Today having occasional 'gulp' feeling, a little jittery, but better- not as light headed or sick- ears still feel full. Well- we'll see. 8:47 AM 7/25/2010 Sun Ok- been taking 50 in the mon, 25 at night, had check up with doc- in couple weeks will cut out norvasc. Had check up with cardio doc- suggested take 50 at night, doc agreed. Had a couple gulps but feeling good last few days. Derm doc took sample in my ear, and have a couple places to cream. Did I mention I'm getting a cataract? Have to do something by xmas maybe. Oh- triglcerides are up- take more fish oil. The very occasional gulp is very slow- like swallowing something soft. Makes me feel hungry. Cardio doc says looks good- come back in 3 months. I think I'll be getting a canoe. 9:57 AM 8/1/2010 Sun Well thurs got the canoe, then to RDU to SLC. So 2000 mile west and 1 mile high. I can't seem to get to sleep before 4 am. Feel ok during day, but last night was worse-- hard beating and sometimes pulse seem to climb for a while. Or it might be salsa. went for hour walk yesterday- feeling a little stressed by end. Feel jittery, and a little burning. Tim says fells fine most of time unless forgets a pill. A few pushups really make my pulse climb. In bad shape? 6:24 PM 8/8/2010 Sun Ok- it was the salsa- late eve watching tv. Otherwise felt great last few days. Very few 'reminders'. But yesterday seemed stronger beat and today also seemed extremly tired- falling asleep every time I sat still. Feeling a little sick and dizzy. A little better after nap. Also having lower back problem lately. Chiro helps, bike ride seems to help sometimes, but sometimes stiff and painful. Oh- feels like a marshmellow in my throat sometimes. Should I worry? Case nurse says I should mention it. Stopped Norvasc today. Making progress? 10:25 PM 8/15/2010 Sun well-- occasional harder beat- - couple hours last mon(?) night- but ok mostly rest of week. A few little gulps. I think I still feel a little jittery. Cardiodoc say monitor bp and pulse- everything seems fine- don't change anything yet. Doing ok I guess- not 100% yet. Maybe 95% 10:09 PM 8/22/2010 Sun OK I guess this week- not much change. BP seemed high for a couple days- seems ok right now. Feels like my pulse climbs up quicker and easier then it used to when more drugged. I wonder if I could handle another stress test. My heart feels-- weak. Not as strong as before. But I guess I'm making progress. Air conditioner went out- very hot and muggy- now storming. 2:01 PM 9/12/2010 Sun Ok-had the stress test last thurs, and of course everything looked fine- nurse said it was 'pretty'. Felt a little funny next couple days- I think next night woke up with heavy heart beat- bp and pulse was up a little, and I had several little 'episodes'-- the tingles and flush feeling, also heart felt warm- could be heart burn- meds can do that-- feel it often. Stopped the nitrate Yesterday- haven't really noticed any difference. Problem lately is my lower back- got x-ray fri- shows bottom disk is pretty 'cwappy' (doc's word)- hurts pretty bad today. wonder what next stepp is. Oh- got duct under house replaced- now blows (too) cold. Building outrigger for canoe. 10:23 PM 10/5/2010 tues Hangin in there. Lowered metropolol couple weeks ago to 50-- it seems I can feel my heart beating sometimes, occasional I feel a gulp or something- specially in evenings. Somtimes I go all day without a reminder. Follow up in week or so. CVS renewed 25 instead of 100. Maybe I can cut down to 25. trying to ask- haven't heard yet. But I think eating affects me sometimes-- heart burn? And I think I'm coming down with something-- wifey was sick. And it really hurts the lower back when I sneeze. Ibprofan every now and then. 6:01 PM 10/24/2010 Sun Well-- I had a rough night last week- hard beating, went into panic(?) mode for a while- tingley, flushed-- bp seemed high. called cardio-doc and asked if ok to take extra 25- they said yes. Bp seems to be slowly going back down- may be from double buffets last sat-- meeting at golden corral then cg party tht night. pigged out- lots of salty stuff. Since then, feel fine. Oh yeah- half blind- cataracts- gotta have surgery in a month. Yay. $2-3000. 4:36 PM 11/24/2010 Wed- Holiday! Typed up nice paragraph- but computer locked up again and forgot everything. Time to switch from my flakey harddrive to my new one. Installed 7 from scratch- installed a few things-- works great! So Eye surgery Monday morn ( up at 5:30! ) but Sun night decided to have another 'episode' - heart beating strongly, flushed and tingley, didn't sleep well. BP up to 185/109 p79. Took extra 25 metropolol. I guess my bp didn't alarm anyone- went thru surgery ok. So spent Monday with eyes closed, Tues check looked good- she tried to have me read some fine print. Sort of could. Said would get better as swelling, inflammation, and dialation wen down. Wed morn, Hey! I can read! The computer screen- keyboard still a little blurry. Oh yeah- another 'reset'? Haven't felt my heart since then. So depending on how next couple weeks go, I have to decide if I want a couple thousand dollar lens or a few hundred dollar lens. Oops- time for more eye drops. 3:10 PM 1/14/2011 Fri Well- lessee. so I have bionic left eye, regular lens in right. Can see quite well far away, and can read in a pinch. For serious reading I may have to get some custom reading glasses. Some days I don't notice anything, and some days I feel some minor flutters or spasms or whatever, last few days seem to be getting more noticeable. At bedtime heart feels like it is beating strongly, can 'hear' it in my chest, neck or ears. Long day yesterday- felt pretty blah. Had checkup today. bloodwork ok, but pulse and bp seem to be nosing up. We decided to up the 'tropolol to 75, and in a couple weeks can drop the zoloft. Been feeling cold, haven't exercised as much as usual (surgery recoup) and gained 10 pounds. And it's cold out there. Snow (ice) days off. Oh yeah- happy 1 year anniversery to me- nothing serious happening so far. 9:16 PM 2/7/2011 Mon. weird. Haven't felt the strong beat for several days- till last night. Wasn't bad- but I don't sleep well until it's over with. But my problem is feeling much more light headed and almost dizzy lately. It's that fuzzy feeling you get when trying to wake up from a heavy nap. Also pressure and ringing in the ears. Too much metropolol? 9:14 PM 2/8/2011 Tues Well big surprise. The plan was to do the 75 mg for a couple weeks, then stop the zoloft. SO I stopped it less then a week ago (I think). Today was worse. Stopped by doc for bp check, and nurse said to wait. Then I mentioned the zoloft. The thought was that the dose was small enough it might not affect me- but apparently it is. Take it again but skip a day every 2 or 3 days and work towards every other day. Yeesh. Skipped CG mtg. 11:12 PM 3/25/2011 Fri wow- been a while. So after felt lousy, took it again for couple days, felt better, then did half dose for couple weeks, then every other day, and havent' taken any for couple three days. Feel lousy. I still get an occaisonal spazm, but haven't noticed lately- unstead I get really light-headed for a few seconds at a time, and I've had a fuzzy ringing in my ears for several days now. Can be withdrawal effect of Zoloft, or , because without the Zoloft, the 'troplol is too much. Either way, if I can last a few more days, things should stablize. Meanwile, feel slightly sick and something I ate today didn't sit well. BP 150/86 - a little lower then average lately. Pulse 63. Just took dog for a walk. Oh yeah- she got attacked by 2-3 dogs, just got her stitches out today. Seems to be doing ok.